Sigh. Imma back in KL again. :(:(:( How i wish i could go back to last Friday, where i was so excited and overwhelmed that time in central waiting for the train back to Ipoh. And that day i wore the orange surgery mask all the way from Wangsa to Central and to Ipoh. People stared at me as if i'm an alien among the humans, or actually they thought i got infected by the virus? o_O Wtf. I felt like a dumb ass the time, walking around with that thing on, with people's eyes looking at me, and it's so freaking hard to breathe.(I'm so not used to that piece of thing covering my mouth and nose.) Hello people, i was trying to protect myself! *shifty eyes*

Somehow. I don't feel like coming back here. Feel so so so much tension and very tired! :(:(:( Over flowing assignments again and again and again.*emo-ing* It's never ending. Well, unless I finished my studies. Wtf. Looking forward to go back to Ipoh again. But too bad bubie can't follow anymore. He'll be having industrial training. Starting from today. =S Till September. =(

Oh ya, and thanks dad for the delicious home cook food!! :DD Also, the salt braised chicken. It's been centuries ago since i ate that. LOL. Miss home cook food so darn much ever since i came to KL. No matter what, home cook food is still always the best. :) And thanks bro for borrowing the pendrive to me. Hoho.

By the way, i noticed that i always curse people a lot everytime while driving when i got back to Ipoh. Can you imagine, you're driving at 100 speed on the fast lane, and suddenly you have to break and slow down because there's a slow-driving car in front of you blocking your way?(That car is driving on a very slow speed and still dare to drive on fast lane!) Or you're facing an idiot dumb ass that don't know how to drive? How you feel? Cuz that happened on me all the time. Then i'll be pissed and starting to curse or do something to scare the shit out of the idiot. *I'm bad i know:P* The way Ipoh-rians and KL-rians drive is very different, seriously. =-O Well, i can't be so stereotype though. There are lots and lots and lots of stupid KL drivers over here! You can find them anywhere on the road. Wtf. Aye, people who understands everything single thing i wrote in this paragraph, you know what the hell i mean.

HE'S MUCH MORE THAN THE KING OF POP.








Yes. No hesitating. It's definitely gonna be Michael Jackson.

Was so in total shocked when i heard the news about Michael had passed away this morning. I was stunned, petrified. How could this happen? I was hoping to see his live concert in Malaysia, someday. But now, this is just totally impossible, obviously.

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When Michael Jackson anointed himself "King of Pop" over two decades ago, there was considerable rumbling about his hubris: Yes, he may have become a world sensation with record-setting sales of "Thriller," and yes, he may have had a string of No. 1 hits with smashes like "Billie Jean" and "Beat It," but the KING OF ALL POP MUSIC?

Surely, in a modern music history that has given us Elvis Presley, the Beatles, Stevie Wonder and so many musical greats, that title was a more than a bit inflated.

But in actuality, Jackson understated his significance.

While his elaborate, stop-on-a-dime dance moves and sensual soprano may have influenced generations of musicians, Michael Jackson stood for much more than the pop greatness — or tabloid weirdness. One of entertainment's greatest icons, he was a ridiculously gifted, equally troubled genius who kept us captivated — at his most dazzling, and at his most appalling.

At the height of his fame, he was among the world's most beloved figures. Heads of state clamored to meet him, screen legends like Elizabeth Taylor were his close friends, and worldwide, simply the mention of his name could make people do the moonwalk, from Los Angeles to Laos (The New York Times once accurately described him as one of the six most famous people on the planet).

His whispery, high-pitched speaking voice was constantly imitated, his fedora hat on his lean frame instantly recognizable, his childlike image endearing.

He influenced artists ranging from Justin Timberlake to Madonna, from rock to pop to R&B to even rap, across genres and groups that no other artist was able to unite. He changed music videos with "Thriller" in 1983, still considered by most to be the greatest music video ever made. Stars like Beyonce still mimic his moves. His one glove, white socks and glittery jackets made him a fashion trendsetter, making androgyny seem sexy and even safe.

Almost everyone wanted that Michael Jackson connection (and those who didn't were afraid to say so out loud). His celebrity and adoration was staggering.

So when his image began to crumble, becoming twisted and disturbed, that aspect, too, was larger than life. His multiple plastic surgeries and his vitiligo illness, which saw him transform from a masculine looking black man to a wispy, pale-faced, almost noseless figure, was held up as the standard for bad plastic surgery, a freakish-looking character.

His eccentric behavior left people confused, and when allegations (and later criminal charges) that accused him of sexually molesting two separate boys surfaced on two separate occasions, people were repelled by his alleged behavior and the man that their former idol had become.

And yet, it was hard to look away.

In the early days, no one wanted to. Jackson came into our public consciousness as an impossibly cute preteen wonder in 1969, an unbelievably precocious singer of his family band, The Jackson 5. The soon-to-be Motown legend channeled songs like "I Want You Back," and "I'll Be There" with a passion and soulfulness that belied his young years. Even then, his dance moves, copped from the likes of James Brown and Jackie Wilson, were exquisite, and his onstage presence outshining season veterans.

The spotlight began to dim when he entered his late teens, however, and while he still had R&B hits with the Jacksons, it seemed as if he would never recapture the pop success that he burst onto the scene with as a child.

But then he met Quincy Jones, and the musical landscape changed. With the legendary producer, Jackson crafted what for most artists would be a career-defining album, from the string-enhanced disco classic "Don't Stop Til You Get Enough," a party staple which he wrote, to the bitter ballad "She's Out of My Life." The best-selling CD showed the world a grown-up Michael Jackson with grown-up artistry, showcasing his breathy alto-soprano voice and providing a springboard to his early videos, which gave a glimpse of the dance wizardry to come.

At the time, it was Jackson's music that was front and center. A 21-year-old who spoke in a breathy, high voice, still lived at home, had his first, barely noticeable nose job and was a self-claimed virgin in an industry known for his hedonism, he was certainly an odd figure, but his personal life had yet to become intertwined with his public image.

That began to change during "Thriller" — the album that would become his greatest success and his career-defining achievement. Also produced by Quincy Jones, it featured even more of Jackson's songwriting talents; Selling more than 50 million albums worldwide to become the globe's best-selling disc, it spawned seven Billboard top 10 hits, including two No. 1s with "Billie Jean" and "Beat It," won an then-unprecedented eight Grammy awards, and numerous other awards.

It was an impact was measured much more than in stats.

He broke the MTV's color barrier, becoming the first artist played on the young, rock-oriented channel when the success of "Billie Jean" and "Beat It" became so overwhelming it could not be ignored. He also established the benchmark for the way videos would be made, with stunning cinematography, precision choreography that recalled great movie musicals. Jackson's amazing talents as a dancer were also displayed to the world during his Emmy-nominated performance for Motown's 25th anniversary, is still considered one of TV's most thrilling moments, from his moonwalk strut to his pulsating pelvic movements.

But as Jackson's fame grew, his eccentricities, from his strange affinity for children and all things childlike, to his at times asexual image to his fascination with plastic surgery, began to dull the shine off of his sparkling image. As the years went by, those "eccentricities" would become more bizarre, and completely tarnish it.

His skin, once a dark brown, became the color of paste, a transition he blamed on the skin disease vitiligo, though some believed he simply bleached his skin in order to appear more Caucasian. That belief was rooted in his frequent plastic surgeries, which whittled his nose from a broad frame to an almost impossibly narrowed bridge. His image was a tough one to look at, much yet embrace.

If his plastic surgery made him disturbingly unwatchable, soon, allegations of child abuse would make him reviled among many. He was first accused of molesting a 13-year-old boy in 1993; no charges were ever filed, a civil lawsuit was settled out of court and he always maintained his innocence. Although he had a chart-topping album with "HIStory" in 1995 and was still a superstar, he was a damaged one — and would never fully recover from the allegation.

A criminal charge of molestation of another young boy 2004, which resulted in his acquittal in 2005, further stripped his marketability and his legacy; after the trial ended, he went into seclusion, and while top hitmakers from Ne-Yo to Akon courted him to make new music, no new CD was ever released. He was overwhelmed with legal and financial troubles, with what seemed like weekly lawsuits against him seeking money owed.

A comeback seemed to be most unlikely. His reputation was considered irreparably damaged, his image mocked and his name an automatic punchline. But when he announced he'd be doing a series of comeback concerts at London's famed O2 Arena in London, not only did the initial dates sell out immediately, the demand was so insatiable he was signed on for an unprecedented 50 shows, and was expected to embark on a worldwide tour sometime after the concert series was complete in March.

Of course, there will be no comeback now, no Jackson 5 reunion, no new music to share with millions of fans. But the legacy he leaves behind is so rich, so deep, that no scandal can torpedo it.

The "Thriller" may be gone, but the thrill will always remain.

Remembered at his worst and best,
And then, they lay the King to rest.

Urghhhhhh..!!!
Arrghhhhhhh..!!!
I'm so so so so so so so so so so so so so so TIRED!!
Lack of sleeping these few days. Been tortured by those bloody assignments. Ended up sleeping around 3 in the morning for almost 2 and a half weeks. Seriously now i do look like a zombie, with those swollen, blackened eye bags. I even doze myself off during lectures and tutorials. Basically, i didn't pay attention throughout the lessons. It's NOT i don't want to. It's just i can't. My brain's controlling me all the way. D: It's like i've been jinxed.

Anyway, my group's research topic has been rejected by the tutor today. *NOOOOOOO* She said our topic is just way too general. Oh godddddddd..... Meaning all our efforts have been swiped off. And we got to start everything all over again, from zero. Wtf. Of course, we changed our assignment topic as well. Actually.. *ahem* Why the freaking hell do we graphic design students need to study all these communications research stuffs? We are NOT supposed to be under mass communication! But now, we have to do all these bloody communications research thingy. Wtf. I feel like my head's gonna break anytime. More and more assignments coming in. Oh my god.. When do i have the time to finish all of them!!?? To all of you these fucking assignments: "STOP! I HAD ENOUGH OF YOU ALL!"

Now, i have to go back to my assignment already. Gonna rush rush rush and RUSH. And i'm still freaking sick! I still got the 2012 oympics pictograms to draw, icons to draw out, signages, research methods.....bla bla bla... WTF. I'm in a very bad mood here. Too stressed up!! URGH!!!!!! .l. .l.!!!!

Finally got back to my hostel. The weather is so freaking hot outside. I was hoping that it'll rain this morning since there was no sunshine at all that time. Went to see doctor just now. And that costs me 32 ringgit!! 32!!! Imagine how many boxes of rice i can buy. And how many sweets and chocolates i can purchase. Duhh.. I thought the doctor will cut down the price since i am a student. But he didn't! Money-sucker! Hmph! I was forced to go to the clinic. My friends they are so scared that i got infected by the H1N1 virus. Plus, i had fever and flu again yesterday night. And started to cough this morning, dizzy as well. I was worried too actually. Cuz i've been traveling here and there by trains(putra+monorail+ktm) for the past week and days, also, i've also been to crowded places too. Thank god that the doctor said it's just a common flu. *phew* He asked me to wear a mask wherever i go and better go to the hospital if i got high fever. *jeez* =___=

By the way, for the Influenza A H1N1 case, there are 12 more new cases now, so total up would be 80 cases of H1N1 infection in Malaysia. omg.

Read this:

http://www.thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/6/24/nation/20090624094550&sec=nation

And i guess i should start to wear mask now whenever i go out. There's a case that H1N1 broke out in Wangsa Maju. Few schools were closed after that. I wonder how many schools and colleges perhaps would close down if the virus keep on spreading. My friend told me that there is a influenza case in Petaling Jaya too. O____O Okay..basically the whole Kl and Selangor is infected? All around Malaysia perhaps? Goodness. I wonder when this virus gonna stop spreading. :S *stop lah. dah cukup ni!*

For people who are having the symptoms which are similar to those of regular flu:
- Fever
- Lethargy
- Runny nose
- Cough
- Sore throat
- Lack of appetite
- Vomiting and diarrhoea in some cases.

Better go and see the doctor A.S.A.P. before it's too late!
This virus can be deadly to everyone.

Holy..

I got lotsa assignments to rush for.

I'm so so so headache now.

Gonna be so doomed.

And i just recovered from fever but not flu. Now i feel the fever's coming back already. Feel so heatie in me.

Could it be...*gasp* H1N1??? D-8

Since it's so active again and i've been taking trains for the past few days and weeks.

Oh no!!!

TOUCHWOOD!!!!

No way no way no way.

Should go for a doctor tomorrow if anything gone worse.

D=

Urgh.



Anyway i can't wait for this coming Friday.

I'm gonna go back to Ipoh.

Back to my home sweet home.

Away from this city full of misery.

Away from my bullshit assignments.

Away from those jaded friends.

Away from everything i hate.

My weekend getaway :)

I'm so looking forward for you.

Well i know it's just temporary only.

Got to come back on Sunday. T____T

Sighs.



By the way, bubie will be starting his industrial training next monday.

For three months, in Shook! Starhill.

Know you gonna be real busy that time. :S

Anyway,

Wish you good luck and all the best then dear. =] *hugs and kisses*

This is the Honda Civic Type R 2009.

omg. *drools*

*i want i want i want i want!!!*



Speed. Control. Perfection. That's always been the driving force behind our cars. And that's why the new Civic Type R is a true driver's car. Rated the best in its class, the Civic Type R boasts sophisticated engineering and superb handling, even at high speeds. (At times, you might even be tempted to think it runs on adrenaline.)Yet not once does the Civic Type R compromise on safety. For those who love speed, it the best choice for you. From bolt to brake pad, every component has been rigorously tested by the experts to give the driver total control once behind the wheel.


O.M.G.

Imagine i drive the car full speed on the highway.

wheeeeeee!!!

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL..

I'm going crazy.

Gonna get you one fine day.

muehehehe :DD



When i got the enough amount of money. D:

:(

I'm very very very tired.

Too tired to carry on.

And i don't have the energy to do my assignments.

I'm so so so tired.

I need a break.

I need rest.

Oh can someone please take me away.

To a better land.

I always hated Miley Cyrus.
But not until i heard this song. (OKAY I LIED. I STILL HATE HER. ahaha)
well
It's very meaningful though.

There are ups and downs in our life. We have to go through every obstacles that exist.
Yet, we still have to be tough and strong. And keep the faith as well.
Live up your dream. :)

Dedicate this to everyone of you out there.

Presenting to you
THE CLIMB by Miley Cyrus


I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

So...

My dad don't allow me to go to The One Academy anymore.

Due to i have to study 4 years over there.

Including the foundation.

Therefore...

The One Academy is officially out of my mind forever.

*sobsobsobsob*

T_____________________T

Still,

My dad leaves all the decision to myself.

*freaking out*

*8-O arghhhhh! no no no no no no*

I need help here.

Seriously.

Now,

My choice is between KBU and TARC.

Still no idea which one to choose.

omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg

I want the best.

What should i do now?

T____________________________T





Goodbye TOA.

Finally, I went to KBU's open day yesterday as well as The One Academy.



Well, for The One, I have to wait till next year in order to get in.

WTF.

I thought i can be exempted from the foundation year and year 1 perhaps.

But the girl there keep on repeating " No no. I think it's difference lorr.. You maybe have to start from foundation lorr... "

Note that, the difference should be DIFFERENT.

The counselor speaks weird english.

That time i was like, WTF. And i keep on telling her i've finished my diploma.

Still, she kept on repeating that again and again.

=_____=

*Hello!? I've got my diploma! And what i've studied in diploma are the same as your fucking foundation!!*

And,

In order to get in, i need a portfolio. A GOOD one.

Also,

I need to draw all those things they've requested me to.

So, if i wanna get in, I HAVE TO WAIT TILL NEXT YEAR.

Well, it's okay to me.

But!

I HAVE TO STUDY FOR FOUR MORE YEARS!!!

FOUR MORE YEARS MAN!!

WTF!!

By the time i get my degree and everything i'll be 24 years old already.

Omg. T____T

Urgh... i hate the counselor. >:(

She's damn arrogant.

By the way,

The fees are so so expensive.

I can take loan.

Yes.

But not during foundation year. I can only do that when i get into year one.

God... Why things turned out to be like that?

T_______T

It's not fair!





For the KBU...

Urm...

VERY FEW people turned up for the open day.

I was expecting loads of people!

And...and...the workers or lecturers there seemed old and bored!

=-O

@___@||||||||||

omg.

Well, the course over there sounds okay as i heard from the counselor from the course.

My, of course it's okay!

It's open day!

They'll talk good things about themselves to get people's confidecet towards them!

Duhh!!

So, I will never know the real them unless i enroll in.

Serious, I do really wanna know the true them and how the students over there are like.

=S

Hopefully,

The students aren't weirdos.

About the accommodation, there's a hostel for students of course.

But it's in central court.

Which, i don't really like there.

And the also provide student house.

Quite far from the college.

But i think it's okay?

I hate the ass hole that explained to me.

He sounds as if he has been severely annoyed when i asked him just one question.

"I'd like to know about the accommodation provided by this college."

WTH! It's just that ONE sentence only.

And he was like, " Urm...................... For now........................ I don't think there are places to stay............... But if you enroll in September i think there are places to stay....................cuz that time some students will graduate............."

In a sleepy, monotonous tone.

Hell, that time i don't feel like asking him anymore. And i feel like punching him in the face!

But if i go to KBU or The One to study, i need a car!

Bad transport over there.

=S




Seriously...

Till now

I STILL CAN'T MAKE ANY DECISION YET!!

I DON'T KNOW HOW!!!

T________________T

I'm such a failure, right!!??

=((((

I don't know whether i should take risk to go to KBU

OR

Rather wait for one more year and another four long years in TOA

OR

Just remain in TARC

OMG...!!!

I FEEL SO SO MISERABLE NOW!!!!!!!!

='((((

Please guide me god.



Frankly,

If i could turn back time,

I won't go to Tarc.

I'll go to Taylor's

that's for sure

or

The One Academy

hell yeah

or

Sunway perhaps.

Definitely.

For sure.

sighs..




Anyway i wanna thank bubie for bringing me to those places. =) Danke lieb und Ich Liebe Dich!

Went to SEGI COLLEGE today.

Things are not what i expected.

Though the campus is quite nice.

BUT...

Their parking lot sucks! It is at the basement yea i know. But it looks so creepy and eerie. Not much light in there. Basically the whole place is dark. I wonder if the basement is haunted. :S

NEXT...

The service at the college there SUCKS. The guy at the counter there is very impatient and unfriendly. I can hardly see a smile on his face. A bachelor of communication dude man. *tsktsk*

This Is A Message To The Communication Research Methods :

Was lying down on my bed in this super hot afternoon.

I was thinking, how nice if my old hostel mateys are still here.

Things are so different ever since they left.

Very different.

Now, for my batch, it's just me and Angie only. *How sad*

I miss you people.

I miss the times when we had together.

I miss the times we laughed and cried or whatsoever.

I miss the times we had fun together.

I miss the times we crazed together.

I miss the times when we talked about stuffs.

I miss the times when we went room from room and chit chatted.

I miss the times when we studied together.

I miss the times when we live together like one big family.

I miss Sun, Connie, Phaik Leng, Fanny, Katharine, Li Hong, Michelle, Wai Kuan.

I miss those good old times.

Basically, i miss E V E R Y T H I N G ! ! !

I wonder how are you guys right now.

It's been a long time since i last saw you people.

Do you guys still remember every single thing here?

I wonder when we can meet each other again.

*EMO-ing*

And guess what, i'm glad that i know you guys. ;)

Well, guess what? My old roommate misses me too! xD


okay, my roommate is using katharine's account. so, the girl in the picture is Not her.

i still miss my old friends. :((

Ahhh~! Finally, i got my DSLR!
It's Canon 450D. :))



Das ist meine baybeh! xD

Thank you daddy for going all the way up to Penang to buy this cam for me. Danke danke!! =)))

Guess i'll be hell busy starting from next week onwards. Seriously, i feel that advanced diploma is so much difficult from diploma. And MORE THEORIES!! omg... and Maths as well! (what the hell! i'd never know graphic design students still need to do those statistics and those crappy maths!) And, in order to get to LJMU there for degree, one student shall not fail more than 3 subjects throughout the whole advanced diploma year and CGPA, 3.5 onwards. Hell man! This is so gonna be hell tough! What if i can't make it to the LJMU? Meaning i just get the advanced diploma cert only, without degree. That's why my dad is so worried on this(me too!), and asked me to go to KBU or SEGI college there to find out. Cuz you'll be getting a degree cert if you've completed your course. Unlike Tar college. This is because Tar college doesn't have degree, that's why they partnered up with LJMU. And by the time we get over there it is their summer time. Basically we'll be seeing Tarc students over there ONLY and NO MAT SALLEH cuz the people over there are having summer holiday! Darn! I thought i can get to know ang mo buds over there. == A lot of my friends back in diploma told me, they would go to other colleges to study instead of continuing advanced here. After listening on what they had say, it feels so true. Tar college is definitely not the first choice for people to look for graphic designers unless you are super good and outstanding. Even my lecturer told us that. SIGH!

Busy..busy..
I need to find out a right time to visit the colleges.

KBU's having open day on the 20th of June from 10 am to 6 pm.

SEGi college, no open day. So i have to find out how all by myself. =S

Why the hell my dad don't let me bring the car over here to drive??
Seriously i can drive well and i know the roads in kl.
Things would be a lot more easier if i have the car!! :(((((((((((((((((((

Goodness. I've missed the morning 8am class. Not once, but TWICE!! This is the second time i missed it! :(( Feel so so so bad right now. Luckily that's a lecture, not tutorial, so no attendance will be taken.

SHAN'T REPEAT THIS EVER AGAIN!! :((

wake up, wake up, from holiday mood. it's no longer holiday right now. you are in advanced diploma now. no longer fooling around. gonna take things seriously. fight for my dream i will!